Riding with my bitches.
Thank you iPad for proving to be useless for 4 months and being sold to a new owner for the exact same price for which you were bought. Yay for money!!!
Oh God, yellow monster energy drinks. Why the fuck can’t I stop drinking you every day??? I love you.
Wednesday’s news.
I don’t know anyone named Wednesday that isn’t famous so I guess I will just jot down a few notables for the week.
Went to see my doctor about stomach pains. After bloodwork ruled out lymphoma and leukemia for my annual check (I have a weird combo of blood disorders and celiac disease makes my lymph nodes super poofy) they revealed I have nothing but inflamed salivary glands and an ulcer in addition to a bug in my belly. Goody!
I got in trouble for weighing in at 117lbs but I don’t care because I love being small and naked. Being thinner has made me way more confident around my own fiancé. I shouldn’t be so hard on myself for carrying around extra weight but now that I listen to brad whine about hating being at 185lbs I am starting to realize that he doesn’t want to let himself go either.
Our daily excercise routines are paying off as are the sacrifices we make with food. I have completely stopped snacking and don’t eat anything after supper. I don’t want any snacks, cakes, cookies or candy in the house either.
Ever get that feeling…
That you were entirely wrong about something and you couldn’t be happier about it?
Shit, it feels like today I have a new lease on life. And love. Yay!
Yay!
3 mile walk last night and Brad woke me up at 6:10am this morning for a walk and a cup of coffee. Bliss.
Brad is down about 8 pounds. Go you and your badassness, hunny!!
In front of work. That’s pretty fly even for a Mexican guy. Ole~
Unexpected results.
I left work feeling rather crappy yesterday. Things in general have been crappy. Relationship juju just wasn’t happening, work being a massive pain in the ass, constant fatigue, bad arguments with my maternal unit… Just a gong show all together. I left with the intention of making my self a vodka soda, taking two Benadryl and zonking out. Instead I got home and realized maybe a nice walk up South mountain’s trails would clear my head or at least make me tired.
I ended up walking and running 3 hours. Total of about 5 miles or more. Up the mountain, around the horse trails… Fuck was it beautiful. I was a sweaty mess but realized… This is the first time I wore a tight top to excercise… In public. It occurred to me that after all these years I accept my body and actually FEEL sexy. I havent needed my inhaler despite my one functioning lung! I mean come on!! This is awesome!
When the man finally got home we went out for sushi. Then we got to talk. No deets or anything as it is mucho prive but I realized the most important thing I have ever found out about relationships ever….
Ready for it??
Your mate does not want to hear you complain and bitch about every tweak, itch, pain, complaint, job hatred, frustration… They consider you a giant, weepy vagina and actually get desensitized to all your whining about aches and pains.
We have agreed to a one month text ban. If we need to speak to each other we will use a brief phone call. Bitching can be saved for Tumblr and facebook if need be.
Damn you common sense. Damn you.
Wtf?
Bored at work and surfing eBay looking at how much some of my closet fodder would get.
My 8” vinyl Futurama Nibbler doll is going for 249.00?? That’s nuts. Pretty glad I never took it out of its box. Damn!
The last two days…
I have consistently lost any hope to argue any changes I want in my life. Acceptance is often taken as settling. Today I realized I am done with fighting and I will just go back to living my life and having zero expectations that my point of view won’t be discarded because my priorities seem less important than everyone else’s.
Fuck it. Just so tired of arguing. I was so much happier when I had zero expectations and lived life on my terms.
